My December 2012 playlist

Every month for the past 2 and a bit years I  have religiously made a music play list. I listen to it for a month, and then it is filed away nicely in iTunes. At the end of the month, its a clean slate to make a new one.  

 It is a bit like my musical diary. 

It was something I did when Dave and I split up,  and it seemed to help.  Music full stop  just seemed to help.  

It soothed my heart when it was hurting. it put fire in my belly when I wanted to be angry, it gave me an outlet to cry easily, to sing really loudly, to live in the moment. To be completely raw.  

My psychologist pointed out to me it was a better way  for my creative mind to deal with the multitude of feelings I was feeling.  Instead of writing  them down which  I found too hard and draining (before blogging of course!!) , I would  to select the music that represented the emotions I was experiencing. 

Its funny looking back on those play lists, and how the songs, all carry themes of Grief. Anger, Denial,  Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance, which just a little bit of happiness. 

Some of the same songs always appeared,  every month, and some dropped off, when I felt no need to listen to them anymore.  When I had passed through one of those stages.  I can really tell what my moods must have been like.  My musical diary is quite a powerful recollection of those times. 

I was sure there was more break up songs on the radio when we broke up, than  I had ever  heard before.  I recently  had to pull  the car over on the freeway when the Rihanna/Emimen song - "Love the way you lie" came on the radio.  Immediately I had flashbacks, I felt like I was choking, like I was going to be sick, it dragged up all these feelings of how I was back then. It is scary that music  has the power to dig up lost feelings and memories, good and bad. I guess you can say it talks to your soul.

Out of habit I still make a list.  This month,  just looking at it, it seems so happy, so alive, so energised. I haven't had a list like this for a while.  I suppose it says alot about how I am feeling this month. 

I thought I would share my songs on here. They are a little (a lot)  daggy, but that's the way I roll. 

In some way they all represent a path I have taken.  Its taken a long time to get here, and I think I have finally arrived. Some are new songs, some are old, some are nostalgic, and some are just pure Christmas. 

They are happy and bubbly and full of life,  I love listening to sad songs, but at this time of year, upbeat is the only way to go. They make me just want to sing and dance, and in life whats better than that! 

Hope you are listening to music that makes you happy  and smile at this time of year - I would love to hear what would be on your favourite December song list! 

Today I am linking up for FYBF over with the gorgeous Grace  over at With some Grace 

Until next time