The joy, oh the joy - A happy reunion

I always, always cry in the opening and closing scenes of the movie "Love Actually"... you know the ones where the cheesy Beach Boys* song "God only nows" plays when different families are being reunited at the airport  after some kind of separation, its emotional, its pure, its love..... and it gets me Every.Single.Time.... guaranteed tears!

So its no surprise that my own Airport experience was not short of these reunion waterworks...  23 days away from Darby and the enormity of that came crashing down on me whilst boarding the plane in Perth on Wednesday afternoon.... it didn't help that the poor lady boarding in front of me was beyond hysterical, she was having a goodbye at the airport and they are the worst... I wanted to reach out and give her a hug... but instead I choked back my own tears... 

I am the first to admit at how well I coped when I was away.. much better than I had expected,  of course there were moments of tears and mixed emotions, but what I tried to do was live my holiday as though Darby was watching.. he wanted me to have so much fun... so I went ahead and did just that. I was just Jane for a change... no interruptions, no distractions, just me... I needed this holiday more than I could ever ever imagined! My brain and body was crying out for it!  

I also knew there was nothing to worry about at home.. Darby was in the best possible care with his Dad and my family! They enjoyed it as much as he did! 

But that plane ride to Melbourne felt like it took forever..that 3 hours 59 minutes was like an eternity! My stomach lurched every couple of minutes and my heart fluttered.. tears would well in my eyes and any moment the Qantas flight attendant would be at my side with some tissues!  I distracted myself with a crappy movie.. I am so sick of inflight movies.. I was nervous, nervous to see my own child.. scared that my feelings wouldn't be reciprocated.. 

The moment we landed my heart started to beat faster and everything slowed down! My sis sent me a message.... they were waiting for me, and my nerves calmed.. he was excited, not about the presents, not about my trip, but about seeing me and as a parent that is one of the best feelings!!! 

I grabbed my case and I was out of there as soon as I could.. I bolted down the corridor, tears streaming down my face... and there he was!! My little batman was there... beaming as he ran to me... "mum, mum, you are here" he squealed before wrapping himself around me for a big, squishy cuddle! (the snap above that my sister was able to take in our first cuddle!) 

It was the best embrace we have had... his voice sounded even cuter and more squeakier than I remembered ... he looked like he had grown, he was more mature... my heart beamed with joy and I actually think his  did too! 

I hugged my sister and aunty too as I wiped away the tears and I cuddled him again... Then Darby took hold of my little red case and proceeded to wheel it proudly through the airport, telling everyone "my mum is home - no more sleep till she is home". 

As we were walking I looked down at his little  feet and pointed out that his shoes were on the wrong feet - my sister replied "only a mum would notice that kind of thing" and she was right... I did feel like a mum again... I felt like something clicked and I was complete again! Back to being a mum, back to my little team.... but with so many happy and amazing memories now to share and teach my little man......

I got to have my own cheesy airport reunion and I felt like I was in my own Love Actually scene... cheesy Beach boys music and all...

Today I am linking up for FYBF over with the gorgeous Grace  over at With some Grace ...... 

* I can say Beach Boys are cheesy because I am seeing them in concert in a month! 

** I got to meet Jayne from Jagger Files  and her gorgeous girl Sophie... she was so kind to pick me up at the international airport and drive me to the domestic in Perth.. we then chatted for ages and it was great!  She is just like she is on her blog! Gorgeous! Just wish we lived closer, it was also a good distraction before I flew to Melbourne xxx

Until Next time.....