The lump finally surfaced this evening as I was driving home from Williamstown from a lovely quiet dinner with Darby... It suddenly hit me, like a jolt of lightening.. I knew it would... I feel so bloody unorganised.. That is so not like me... Each day I say I need to write a to do list.. another day comes and goes.. and I'm one day closer to leaving... 10 days away in fact... I still need to get my hair down, shave my legs... pack my bags.. clean my house...organise money for my trip, pay for accommodation, print tickets.. they are all not super important but need to be done.. and I am losing precious time. I think my procrastinating is a classic case of trying to avoid the inevitable.. leaving Darby behind...
So I said to Darbs who was being surprisingly quiet in the back seat that I was getting sad about my trip ... he replied so innocently..."that's because you are going to miss me so much mum!" With this response I just burst into tears... what he said was so simple, such an obvious statement but coming from him tore at my heartstrings and my eyes kept streaming with tears... He followed up by saying "But you are going to bring me back so much presents".... of course I smiled at this... he always knows how to make me smile when I'm being a silly emotional mum!
So I said to Darbs who was being surprisingly quiet in the back seat that I was getting sad about my trip ... he replied so innocently..."that's because you are going to miss me so much mum!" With this response I just burst into tears... what he said was so simple, such an obvious statement but coming from him tore at my heartstrings and my eyes kept streaming with tears... He followed up by saying "But you are going to bring me back so much presents".... of course I smiled at this... he always knows how to make me smile when I'm being a silly emotional mum!
From an idea a friend gave me on Facebook, I have decided I am going to write a journal just for him... letters and photos of my travel experiences so he can read years down the track.. (Of course I am going to do the cheesy & classic postcard from every destination and send those too)... I have picked up a cute notepad to jot notes down.... but really... my writing is messy and it hurts my wrist to write too long... so I have decided for the duration of my holiday I am going to write posts to him.... to the baby I'm leaving behind.. Letters to my Darby... I'm hoping it will keep me connected to him everyday when I'm unable to kiss him goodnight or even speak to him.. I'm hoping and praying it will keep me sane...
Has anyone written a travel diary for anyone else before??
Only one week to go.... I have to go pack!
Until next time, Lets hope I get my suitcase packed in time....
Gorgeous idea Jane. A great way to share your experience with him and let him know how much you thought of him while you were away. Just remember to have some fun for you too x
ReplyDeleteThanks Nee... I think Im going to get a permanent marker and write on the back of my hand.. Remember to haver fun!!! ..... (Hopefully that will work!) xxx
DeleteAww Jane. That is so lovely. You will miss him, and he you, but those three weeks will be over before you know it. Enjoy it, you so deserve to have a lovely holiday.xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Lee... Im getting super excited and super scared.. i think the more I get excited the more scared i get!! I know Ill have a fab time and I know Darby will be fine!! Its the inner mum getting the better of me!!
DeleteWill have to catch up when I get back xx
That is a great idea Jane- there is nothing like writing in the moment and it will be great for you both to look back on. I have one on the road at the moment and sometimes I just do dot points/lists of things I want to remember, facts or feelings, esp if I am pooped. Other days I reflect a lot and go deep. Ali Edwards has some great ideas as to what to do- (another she mentioned was to have someone else write in your journal or as you are; & write to someone specific and tell them everything you wish they could see if they were with you).
ReplyDeleteI look forward to reading all about it!
Have a wonderful time! We are in Paris from 4-7 July, so if by some amazing chance we could run into each other...
Safe trip xoxo
Carlie Fraser
Thanks Carlie... thats what I thought!! I think its easier to write when there are amazing things to do and see! and yeah even if there are just moments worth remembering then its worth writing down!!
DeleteIll be in Paris on the 16th and 17th.. so close to when you are there! Would have been so bizarre if we had been there at the same time!!
Thanks for giving me Ali Edwards website.. I have had a look and think Ill get some great ideas from that! When do you get home?
Your trip has looked amazing so far! Lots of memories there!
xxx
Oh jane, i have a lump in my throat for you too. But what a fantastic way to keep a journal. Love it! Can't wait to read about your adventures, xx
ReplyDeleteKate, I kinda took your idea of the 100 postcards... was going to send him a postcard a day :) but realised that may be a little tricky! so this is much easier and at least he can read it when he is older ! Was great to catch up the other night! xxx
DeleteOh jane, i have a lump in my throat for you too. But what a fantastic way to keep a journal. Love it! Can't wait to read about your adventures, xx
ReplyDeleteAww, I have tears welling in my eyes. I know it is such a big deal to go on holidays without Darby and rightly so but before you know it it will be over and back to normal,. The journal is a great idea and will keep you connected when your away.x
ReplyDeleteGod Jane, you made me well up and I rarely! get too emotional. It could have also been that I was thinking you had an actual lump in your throat! Love your idea of a journal. When I've kept travel books I've included little envelopes that have my tickets to things, little coasters and matchboxes etc, interesting items that say you were actually there other than just pics. I'd LOVE to see it on return if youre keen to show me :) xx
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful thing to do for him hun. I know it must be tough, but this is going to be so good for YOU!
ReplyDeleteI dont know if you have time before you go, but something I used to do for my kids when I was travelling for work was I made a little video (only short) one for each day I was away and I wrote them each a letter that their dad would put under their pillow each night. Yes it used to take me ages, but man they loved it so much getting that letter each night. I only wrote one letter to all of them and my hubby would rotate which pillow it would be under. xxx
Such a good idea. Leaving him will be tough, but you will have so much to tell him about when you get back xx
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