Birthday love.... and the sharp reality of life (ouch)

I woke up this morning on the dot of 7am (no alarm clock required!) and it was so quiet, everything so still, I could only hear some birds chirping away in the distance and a little rain hitting the roof.. I realised it was so quiet without Darby here... But my body

is still so in tune with his morning rituals..

Darby was having a grown up sleepover with his Aunty Laura.. He was soo excited and happy, planning games to play with her and speculating on what they would share for dinner... He has been soo delightful and joyous to be around of late.. maybe he is turning the corner and losing the urge to have a hissyfit about everything (or he knows Santa is on his way!)

I don't think the joy though will last long today when I take him to get his 4 year old vaccination! Yikes ... I hated taking him to those appointments when he was a bub, but now it's even worse!! I am a big needle hater from way way way back, so I don't want to pass down that phobia..I can see why its such a common neurosis! 

 All the questions he will ask.. Oh boy... I have some answers ready.. but will they really stack up to being jabbed in the arm.. probably not for a four year old!  The "event" is being dressed up as a Teddy bears picnic... I feel bad I am coercing him into a fun event... to then come out the other end with a sore arm.... I just hope it's not that bad and he forgets all about it when the lollipop is handed to him and the big teddy shakes his hand!!

We might need to make a special coffee/milkshake trip this morning - to a place of his choice!! Hopefully he picks a good one! Although I needn't worry, he has such great taste in all things coffee!!

We are also gearing up for my birthday this week... I love love love my birthday... But last year was a tough one.. The first time I had felt really emotional and let it show... I nearly cried all day.. It was the first birthday I had been all by myself in 6 years! This year though, I realise I do have my little man by my side!!!

Darby has organized a candle (a frog one of course!) and is finalizing the cake flavor! When I ask what he is going to get me, he replies with "makeup"(knows me so well!) and gets my wallet out and shakes around my credit card!! Bless him!! He is Soo excited for me!!

So I am not dreading it nearly as much.. It's still going to be tough.. But I'll choose to say it will be different! Anyway I am not letting anything hold me back from a good old celebration...This year has been a year of real growth for me as a person so I have worked bloody hard for that number 32!!! And hopefully in a few short weeks I'll be celebrating reaching another number (100 coffees!!) that's when I'll have the big party!!

Until next time .... Life is too short to drink crappy coffee!!

Think I am 2 here!

Picnic at Hanging Rock! Rocking Number 7!

Turning the big 1 8 ... woo hoo

20... and dressed as a Tramp!!!! (Flamenco Dancer
With my bestie..(and still is) Shaz

Enjoying Veuve on my 27th!!! mmmmm

1st birthday as a mum! awwww