More time..

In a few short weeks I'll be a mother of a five year old!! It seems so weird for me to even say this, like I'm talking about somebody elses child, not my own . Not possibly my own. 

Yet filling in his school enrollment forms with his dad, just reinforced the feeling that the baby I once cradled oh so small against my chest has now developed into a boy, a big boy who now leaps, bounds and jumps into my arms! 

This little boys personality is emerging more and more every day. I can see the likeness of myself in him like a mirror, but I also see the other side, he is so much more confident in himself than I ever remember being! I was timid and shy, always blushing, trying to hide behind my mousy locks.  This kid I have is charming and confident and has more cheeky in him than I ever knew could possibly exist. He will speak to any child with such ease, he is confident with adults, and although I have so much to teach him about the world, he has a ginormous heart, that makes me proud as a parent every day.

And as I consider this massive milestone coming up in my Darby's life, I have had news to lift me as a parent, to make me realise how much time I do want to spend with him before he goes to school, and  how much  more I have to teach him before his big, big  adventure.
 Alot of this good news has been mostly a relief.  I have been given a lifeline, I have been on a little bit of a slippery slope this year heading no where good. And now  I have been given more time! 

My work has come to the party and offered me 3 days a week! This is an amazing outcome and one I am so very very happy about it. The relief, sheer relief and the weight of everything on my shoulders has now been momentarily lifted.  

More time - what joy ! What I have wanted for so, so long, I have finally been granted !

The days of working four days are over, the struggling, sinking, drowning, not coping with  full time working and solo parenting at the same time,  pressures of Childcare and the early starts and the unreliable nature of what my Thursday's were, are gone,  done and dusted. The late nights getting home, the one less day spent in peak hour traffic so bad you can only cry (or laugh as I often forced myself to do), the toast for dinner, the tears by both of us in the morning.  Gone gone gone. 

I can now say I have more days at home than at work! Its only one day that I will be working less but the weight of that now gone has transformed me, and it hasn't even happened yet! (it starts next week) 
I am and will be so grateful for this extra time, time to spend with my baby who is becoming a boy... I cant wait! I want to capture these moments while I still can and for us to both savour  these times before he enters the next stage of his little life! 

Today I am linking up for FYBF over with the gorgeous Grace  over at With some Grace ...... 

Until Next time.....  Life is too short for Crappy Coffee!!